A Girl’s Confession

ya..

i feel teared apart..

my sister, L went back to her unstable state of mind AGAIN…

i really cannot take it..

my father seems so care-less in this whole thing..

and my stepmom just keep on adding salt to the wound..

saying L did this to herself.

i asked sis aka honey if i owe my family in my previous life.

and she says most prob with so many stuff happen within my family..

cos it’s like yi bo wei ping yi bo you qi de feeling..

i hope i will stand strong..

i hope by then i wouldn’t go bersek..

Adapted from a friend:

    从前有个书生，和未婚妻约好在某年某月某日结婚。

    到那一天，未婚妻却嫁给了别人。书生受此打击，一病不起。

    家人用尽各种办法都无能为力，眼看奄奄一息；这时，路过 一游方僧人，得知情况，决定点化一下他。僧人到他床前，从怀里摸出一面镜子叫书生看。

    书生看到茫茫大海，一名遇害的女子一丝不挂地躺在海滩上。

    路过一人，看一眼，摇摇头，走了！

    又路过一人，将衣服脱下，给女尸盖上，走了！

    再路过一人，过去，挖个坑，小心翼翼把尸体掩埋了！

    疑惑间，画面切换。书生看到自己的未婚妻，洞房花烛，被她丈夫掀起盖头的瞬间。

    书生不明所以？！

    僧人解释道：那具海滩上的女尸就是你未婚妻的前世。

    你是第2个路过的人，曾给过他一件衣服。她今生和你相恋，只为还你一个情。

    但是她最终要报答一生一世的人，是最后那个把她掩埋的人，那人就是他现在的丈夫。

    书生大悟，唰地从床上坐起，病愈 !

My thoughts on this:

Life is like a bus on a journey. Some will alight at a point, some will board at another point. Indeed one might not have only one relationship but have to go through a few to at last find their true love. However, I believe it’s all worthwhile when you reach your destination.

I hope R and sis’s E will realize this. Perhaps they are the second one to help us in our previous life, which is why we have shared memories with them as a couple. But C and sis’s W are the ones we are meant to be together, therefore in the end, to pei wo men zou dao marriage de are them.

ya.. it’s indeed been a long time since i blog..

well.. C proposed to me and i’ve agreed.. 

as for R… i’ve finally told him with some stuff hold back still..

tat i’ve went baack to C…

of cos at first, he was angry but later on, he told me he still loves me too much to hate me..

i really hope he can find a good girl soon..

i really feel bad towards him..

i’m the one who hopes he will break off with his gf at that time so tat he can be with me..

but when he finally did, my heart no longer feels the same..

to have the courage to break off with C and be with R like wat i had nearly done when C was overseas reservist?? sorry.. i really cant do the same thing now…

sis and her bf break off le.. she’s now with a new guy call W.

i think W suits her more.. she’ll be as xin fu as me shd she stick with W.

i’m worried for my sister.. she’s nt taking her medication regularly..

and when u ask her to take her medicine.. she will be very bu nai fan.. and keeps on saying she has recover le..but everyone knows at this stage, drunk man will insist tat they are nt drunk. haiz.. jiang ta ye bu shi.. bu jiang ta ye bu shi.. what can i do?

looking at the  way she treats her current bf, i think sooner or later she will lose him.. and i hope this day will nt come cos her current bf is really a nice man.

tomor will be my last paper..

i cant wait for it to end..

will be gg MOS i think with S, her hubby, her hubby’s frz and one of my practicum frz with her frz..

C not gg as his frz cant make it..

i’m regaining my appetite..

should i be happy or what??

hmm..

weigh myself just now at C house..

no leh..

my weight still the same leh..

nan dao wo zhen de shi gu zhong?

or i just didn slim down..

hmm..

anyway been slacking for 1 hr liao..

must go back and hit the books..

sianz….